Toasted Marshmallows.

Things I am finally discovering:

2010-05-24T08:14:00.000-07:00

1. Eat more healthy foods, but less overall

2. Running is good, and makes me feel good as well

3. Wear less make-up, plus wear it less often

2010-01-30T13:11:00.000-08:00

Semi-faraway future goals:

Apply to be a TREK Community Service Leader
Become a German and/or Math tutor
Apply to ASB again (maybe leader position?)
Get a part-time semester job/internship
Start connecting with professors, consider different engineering areas
Mehr Deutsch!
Learn to bake awesome scones and muffins, and then move on to cookies and cakes
Buy more handmade/vintage (thank you, etsy!)

Hmm all stuff I really want to do. I hope I don't go too crazy attempting to accomplish it all.

PS,

Why do I like such unlikely guys? Aka, one I spent a super-long plane ride with and one I've seen ONCE (for about half an hour) in, oh, the past thirteen months?

Yep.

2009-10-04T09:25:00.000-07:00

Still searching for the equivalent of "hát" in German. I still find myself wanting to say it, despite having not spoken Hungarian in over three years and spoken German for the last 2+. Funny how some things never change.

That being said, life still goes, and it goes especially well in other countries.

Oh, and Nutella = amazingness.

Who would have thought...

2009-09-22T09:47:00.000-07:00

About 1/3 of my courses here in Graz could potentially have a great deal to do with Russian.

Didn't I come here to learn German? Ah yes, but they will be taught in German. :)

Und Ungarisch noch einmal! ENDLICH! Ich freue mich sehr darauf. :D

2009-09-19T03:23:00.000-07:00

Yep.

My my my, how time can fly.

2009-08-22T11:02:00.001-07:00

Umm neun Tage mehr, bis ich nach Österreich fliege! Das ist total verrückt, meiner Meinung nach. Aber ja, jetzt bin ich zurück in Burlington bei Amanda. Ich bin schon eine Woche hier. Middlebury was fantastisch und verrückt. Ich habe viele erstaunliche Menschen kennen gelernt. Ich vermisse sie schon. Hoffentlich werde ich sie eines Tages noch einmal sehen.

Mein Deutsch ist viel, viel besser als bevor Middlebury. Es war bestimmt eine gute Entscheidung, dieses Programm zu machen. Aber ja, es ist merkwürdig, zurück in der englische Welt zu sein. Aber nur für neun Tage mehr! Dann.... Ein Jahr in Österreich. Ich freue mich sehr darauf. Ich habe schon ein anderes Blog gemacht--es ist für meine Zeit im Ausland. Hier ist die Link: http://austauschen.wordpress.com/

Ich werde diese Blog fortfahren, aber die andere wird für Österreich sein und diese wird für nur was auch immer sein.

Letze Nacht war die "CD Release" Party von Teds Band. Es war gut, aber es war ein bisschen komisch--das war die erste Zeit, in der ich ihn gesehen habe, seit irgendwann in März. Wir haben ein bisschen auf Facebook gesprochen, aber nie von Angesicht zu Angesicht. Wir haben ein bisschen gesprochen, aber er hat viele Dinge zu machen. Es war interessant... Ich finde, dass ich ihn immer noch mag.. Aber es war ich, wer unsere Beziehung beendet hat, vor fünf Monaten. Ich weiß es nicht--vielleicht war es nur, weil er Musiker ist. Und sehr nett, und schön, und ja. Scheiße. Eine Woche bevor ich nach Österreich fliege. Wirklich?

2009-07-28T15:48:00.000-07:00

Ich verstehe unsere Beziehung nicht. Ja, wir sind gute Freunde, aber gibt es etwas mehr? Ich möchte wissen, weil wir nur 2.5 Wochen mehr haben... Was passierte letzes Wochende--bedeutet das nichts? Warum hältest du jetzt, wie du mir wahrscheinlich ausweichen willst?

Und ich habe keine, keine Ahnung, warum ist es mir nicht egal. Es ist total dumm. Ich verstehe nicht.

2009-05-24T20:06:00.000-07:00

"Come and remind me, come and align me, come and find me..."

God, I love Nizlopi.

Anyway. Life is still... Meh. I'm still home and incredibly bored, longing to be back in Vermont... Wishing whatshisface knew that I liked him, wishing I had more control over the situation (but somehow a little bit glad/relieved that I don't), and as usual, always keeping my options open. I'm pretty sure that's another problem I have. Hmm.

Well, now some friends are home, so things are a bit better. We're planning on going to the boardwalk some time soon before I leave again, so that'll definitely be fun.

As it stands now, however, I just want the sun to come back. It's been foggy and cold (and windy) for the past week, and I'm sick of it.

Whoops

2009-05-09T19:21:00.001-07:00

Just realized my three most recent posts were put in the wrong blog. Ooops!

Here goes!

2009-03-19T15:53:00.000-07:00

Whew, it's second semester with seven weeks left... Then I'm done and it's summer. What?! Where has the time gone?

Spring break was last week. I participated in an Alternative Spring Break trip to the Grand Bayou, Louisiana. Talk about eye-opening and life-changing. Nine other college students and myself stuffed ourselves (and all of our crap and mounds of food) into a twelve-person van for a 30+ hour drive down there. The drive down was split over three days, so it wasn't that bad at all. An interesting night was spent in Atlanta, GA... Interesting place to stay, interesting people encountered. Once we finally made it to the Bayou, we suffered all sorts of van problems, but once they were sorted out, we commenced in four days of relief work (aka, cleaning up debris, planting trees, cleaning houses, building flower boxes). The area was completely, and I mean COMPLETELY wiped out by hurricanes Katrina and Rita, and there is still SO much to be done. It was ridiculous that we were cleaned up debris from storms that happened 3.5 years ago. The work was so rewarding and the people were SO welcoming and kind... They took us around the bayou and even took us to see alligators! We also took an afternoon/evening trip to New Orleans... A totally different kind of destruction, but destruction nonetheless. Then very early Saturday morning, very much against our will, we left the bayou to begin a 30+ hour drive home over the course of just two days this time. Somehow we made it, and now I've been back for four days. It's so surreal. It was surreal being down there, and I think it's just as surreal as being back. Two completely different worlds... The experience was definitely life-changing, and it was sure as heck the best spring break I've ever had.

Now I'm stuck figuring out my summer plans, waiting to hear back about study abroad, and trying to keep up with all of my work before my head explodes.

2008-12-06T09:56:00.000-08:00

So my computer isn't letting me access this on Firefox... So I have to use yucky Safari. Anyway.

I'm still alive! I'm just so busy nowadays, what with schoolwork, planning to go abroad, boy, finals just around the corner... Boy problems, yes. Of course. I never want these sorts of things, but they always seem to find me. They're not that big of a deal, but a minor annoyance. I like one guy who's going away next semester, and I like another guy who'll be here next semester... Bleh.

That being said, I bought the Frye boots I've been in love with forever last night. They were about $100 cheaper than they would have been if I'd ordered them online, and I absolutely love them. I was so lucky to have gotten them when I did (a Friday night? Really?)... The sales lady said that they probably would have been gone by the end of the weekend anyway, if I hadn't been buying them. I'm so happy. :D

So I've been thinking...

2008-06-15T15:35:00.000-07:00

I've been thinking more and more about doing a fifth year while in college. That could allow me to do so many more things that I otherwise wouldn't have the opportunity to do--like study German more, maybe actually do a full semester at sea... It would also really ease my course load; there would be more time for me to take courses other than the ones I'm required to take. Of course, if I transfer, I might have to do a fifth year in any case, but if I don't it might be a really good option. I dunno, I'll have to think about it more and talk it over with people at UVM and my parents...

Oh jeez...

2008-05-26T17:37:00.000-07:00

TOO much stuff floating around in my head. What should I do next summer? Should I transfer? Tufts is my dream school, but BU is looking pretty nice as well. Do I even want to leave where I am already? Is it worth it? Will I be happier? How will I ever know if I don't try?

Happy, happy, happy.

2008-04-15T15:00:00.000-07:00

We're a perfect fit--and in more ways than one, I think.

Plus it's sunny and warm... What else could one want to make one happy?

This is incredible.

2008-04-07T13:32:00.000-07:00

I've found the guy I've been looking for (unknowingly) for a long time. He's so attractive, nice, sweet, amazing.... Yeah. This is awesome.

2008-03-27T06:28:00.000-07:00

What is it that makes one think someone is so much more attractive when they decide to, say, join the Coast Guard? Maybe it's the whole dedicating one's life to saving others' lives... I dunno. But that's a definite plus in my books.

On another note, I want to do a semester at sea.

2008-03-13T11:51:00.000-07:00

I've decided that if I could be anything for a day, I'd be a comet.

How does that sound?

So I was just thinking...

2008-02-13T12:23:00.000-08:00

What if mirrors didn't exist? What if we couldn't see ourselves whenever we wanted to... What if we couldn't see ourselves at all?

I can barely even imagine. I was just reading a review for the movie "The Diving Bell and the Butterfly," and it made me think. And then what if, all of a sudden, you saw a reflection of yourself for the first time in your life--suddenly you found out what you actually looked like. How crazy would that be? Sheesh.

2008-02-02T07:06:00.001-08:00

"If I could do just one near-perfect thing I'd be happy."

Freezing rain.

2008-01-30T17:03:00.000-08:00

So yesterday it was raining, but it was so cold that it would freeze upon hitting the ground. It was around one o'clock, and I was going down to lunch with Ryan and Sara. I take two steps outside of the door at the bottom of the fire exit (which we are allowed to use as a regular exit) and what do I do? My feet totally slip out from underneath me, I fall backwards on my butt and smack my head on the ground. That was the most painful my head has EVER felt. Maybe the most pain I've ever been in. I was still conscious and everything, but I landed on my butt, right elbow, and head. I could talk and whatever, but I was in so much pain that I couldn't really comprehend what was going on around me. I heard some guys walking by ask if I was all right, but I couldn't answer because I was so shocked by what had just happened. Ryan gave me Advil right away which I took... I'm thankful because it most definitely helped ease the throbbing. Anyway, I went after about five minutes of sitting in ice (my butt was freezing and soaking), I got up and held on to Sara and Ryan to go get lunch. I called the health clinic later to see if I should come in, and they said that unless I started vomiting or something that I should be fine. I didn't vomit or blackout or have severe headaches, so I'm assuming I'm okay. I still have a really sore spot on my head that messes up my sleeping, but I'm okay otherwise. But seriously, it could have been really dangerous. And I know of at least three other people who did the exact same thing as me (except maybe not hitting their head, although I know at least one person who did) in the exact same place. Yikes.

Anyway. That's what's going on with me... Most imminently, anyway.

Well...

2008-01-05T22:51:00.000-08:00

Darn. I like Bill Richardson. Too bad he doesn't have a flying crap chance at winning. Not that I consider myself literate about politics and the current presidential race at ALL, but from the debate tonight, he impressed me. Unfortunately, I think the reason I liked him the most was due to the fact that he seemed the most honest, the most realistic, the most real in general...And unfortunately, I attribute that to the fact that he has no chance at winning the nomination and thus he can actually be honest and such to the public. :/

So blah.

2007-12-11T16:03:00.000-08:00

I've pretty much decided to be determined to not to waste my time on anyone right now.. I'm going to try to convince myself that I'm not interested in anyone because I'm sick of it not being reciprocated. I'm just going to wait until someone comes to me. The end.

Sooo.

2007-11-26T17:33:00.000-08:00

Thanksgiving break is over... That was the first time we'd had time off from classes since the second week of school (meaning, way back at the very, very beginning of September). That's saying something, seeing how much work a typical student has every day. It was really nice being home for the first time since mid-August. I got to see nearly everyone I wanted to, which was a pleasant surprise.

So now that Thanksgiving's done, it's basically the last couple weeks of the semester... Meaning finals are coming up. Oh joy. Less than three weeks until I'm home again, though.

On the plus side, I ordered a camera, a cardigan, and a sweatshirt yesterday and today. Probably didn't need to spend the money, but I wanted some things to spruce up my wardrobe. I wouldn't have ordered the sweatshirt, but there were only two left in my size, so I had to seize the opportunity, you know? I would've regretted it if I hadn't, so I'm glad I did.

So yep. That's pretty much it... I'm full-on in the process of completing my application to study abroad next fall (eep! So soon!), so that's exciting. A school in Graz, Austria, is my top choice, but there are some awesome-sounding schools in the UK that are greatly tempting me as well. Hmm... Decisions, decisions. I want to get this done before winter break, too.. Ah well, it'll get done somehow.

2007-10-17T16:38:00.000-07:00

Whyyyy don't teachers ever give me enough feedback on my essays? How do I know what to improve on? How do I know what's good already? Putting checks here and there and circling a word or two isn't enough, people... Can't you give me some actual help?

I am not in a good mood right now.

2007-10-14T16:03:00.000-07:00

My English teacher didn't help me at all in his response the email I sent him; instead he made me regret emailing him at all in the first place. I tried to reach out for some help instead of just letting it sizzle inside of me, and what does he do? He just makes me feel like an irresponsible prat who isn't doing her job as a student. Maybe that wasn't his intention, but either way, it came off as such.

Anndddd certain people (ahem) aren't making me feel any better about it.. What the heck? When I need a little support, you just push me down even further. Thanks.

Time flies.

2007-10-07T10:24:00.001-07:00

Everyone either had their parents come this weekend or went home.

It's so quiet.

I miss him, but I don't know how I really feel.. I want to say it's exclusively him, but I don't know. I just want to be around him.

Yeah, I didn't want to go anyway.

2007-09-28T18:07:00.001-07:00

Thanks, guys.

2007-07-07T12:02:00.001-07:00

I did it, and I'm sorry, but I don't regret it.

Trust me, it was for the better.

2007-07-03T20:38:00.001-07:00

I just feel so, so bad, and nothing's even happened yet.

Wow.

2007-06-30T17:54:00.000-07:00

My how time flies. I survived AP tests, graduated, went to orientation, went on my senior trip, and now I'm home again. I'm done with high school, I'll never see most of those people again, I have my courses for my first semester of university.

All that's left is waiting to ship off to college.

Heck yessss!

2007-05-10T12:53:00.000-07:00

Soooo I'm dooonnneee with AP tests for EVER!

Just took English today.. Now I'm done! Stats was hard, Calc was killer, English was meh.. But I'm DONE!

Oh my gosh.

2007-04-29T16:15:00.000-07:00

So long since I've written, so much to say. To cut things short...

Facebook > myspace. I've found sooo many people who don't have myspaces from my past, and I (re-)met Ethan, who asked me out today. I'm so much more than happy. Never been like this before. Sooo unbelievably happy! :)

Prom was last night. Kinda sucked; not worth the money I paid for it. The bus ride was better than prom itself.

AP tests start in a week and a half. Ohh boy. Can't wait. Hah. I'm going to fail them all. Joy.

The end!

2007-03-29T16:22:00.001-07:00

Well this sucks.

Screw you.

2007-03-28T15:05:00.001-07:00

I don't like you, and you are despicable, rude, and undeserving of any respect.

2007-03-15T19:16:00.000-07:00

If I could be an element, I'd be air.

2007-03-03T10:38:00.000-08:00

Are you waiting for me?
Are you hands down in the dirt?
We belong together... I've been longing since my birth
To be arms around you, to be true to who we are
To let all our pain out, to be playing in your heart...

Ahh love that song. So I'm going dress shopping today! Hooray!

Have an interview with a lady from Dartmouth on Tuesday. Wooo.

Weather's gorgeous outside--there will be mucho traffic for the beach. :/

And that's it.

2007-02-23T19:34:00.001-08:00

So my mom bought something like 300 hangers online... ?!

Meanies.

2007-02-22T16:16:00.001-08:00

I thought we were all going to go together...?

Yesterday:

2007-02-10T14:33:00.000-08:00

Full of running around and jumping in puddles, swinging on swings, hanging out with friendsies.

Today: Bleak, bland, full of avoided homework.

2007-02-06T15:58:00.000-08:00

I didn't get in to Tufts. :(

2007-01-28T18:04:00.000-08:00

Howww is it possible for my dad to be so petty and immature, and in turn make me so mad at him?

Geez I can't wait to go to college. Only a few more months.. Thank goodness.

2007-01-27T16:42:00.001-08:00

I don't know what to believe or who to listen to..

Blah. Sleep is the only time I can really escape.

And when the heck are my books coming?!

2007-01-26T18:14:00.001-08:00

Oh geez.

I feel so down.. Pretty much defeated.

Internet's out.

2006-12-29T16:38:00.000-08:00

So our internet and cable are out at home. Oh joy. I'm at the local library checking email and junk. Not to mention turning in one of my college apps. Should've seen Dad blow up when he realized our internet was out and I hadn't submitted all of my apps yet. Haha. Oh well, it's going to sort itself out.

I still have to finish up the Amherst one.. Probably do that tonight. If our internet still isn't back, I'll either come back here again tomorrow to submit it or I'll steal one of my friends' computers for a few minutes or I'll find an internet cafe somewhere.

Anyway, on a more interesting note, my brother lost his gas cap yesterday, and right now he's off with Liz searching for it on the side of 92 somewhere.. Funny, if you ask me. Hope their efforts aren't in vain, though.

So yup, that's all for now. Woo.

2006-12-24T11:57:00.000-08:00

Boldog es bekes karacsony, mindenkinek!! Remelem hogy nektek egy annyira jo es fantasztikus karacsony, es hogy az uj annyira szep es jo nektek.. Tenyleg.

:)

2006-12-22T20:07:00.001-08:00

Why is it that once you've caught the travel bug, you can never give it up?

2006-12-11T20:24:00.000-08:00

Oh my goodness I"m frazzled right now. Freaking turned my common app in, so I'm glad, but I have to get transcripts sent from both the community colleges I've attended in the past and currently, and they are going to take who knows how long to be sent, and they have to be in to all but one of the places by the first of January. That's like less than three weeks. I'm so stressed. I wish I had known earlier..

Well, at least I'm done with the main application and just have supplements left.. I'm hoping to get those done by the end of this week so I'll be free for skiing and for winter break. But man, am I stressed right now. It's taking all I have not to go insane, I swear. I just want everything to be over and taken care of and know where I'm going to go to college and bleh.

2006-12-10T15:15:00.001-08:00

So I can't figure out how to put my other blog I have on my profile page...?!

EDIT: Nevermind. I used my incredible brainpower to figure it out. :)

2006-12-10T15:08:00.001-08:00

Hmm.